You know, I always have prided myself in being a disaplined gambler. Well last week that went out the window.
I played alot. Online and in the land casino. I had some really great wins, and I played on and lost it all. I am not sure what got into me. I just was searching for that bigger win. I should be happy to cash out in the hundreds but I wanted it to be the thousands again, and so I pushed Lady luck, and she pushed back really hard.
At the Soaring Eagle casino close to my house I won a small progressive jackpot playing a penny slot game for $1100 bucks. You have to play max in order to collect the 13 monkey symbols. When you reach 13 of them, the machine decides what amount to give you as a progressive payout. Darned if I didn't win the biggest one. It was exciting and I felt great. I know enough to know that wont happen again, so I leave the machine but thruout the rest of the night I played alot of different games, max credits, to try to increase/repeat the win. No luck. I left to go home, and was pretty angry at myself. I have a pretty strong stomach when it comes to gambling. I dont put myself thru the regret process, or guilt machine. I lost, and I move on. I don't have time to go thru everything I should of done dfferent. It happens to all of us, and I was doing it in pursuit of a bigger win.
A few days later I deposited at Platnium PLay casino, a mere $40 bucks, and was betting $2.10 per spin on "Alaskan Fishing." Oh I love this game. I was about down to an empty bankroll and "Oh my gosh," I had wild symbols all over the place, matching with all the best symbols. It netted me a $1000 in one spin. I was estatic. (There is no playthru at this casino, as they rarely have promotions going on as deposit bonuses.) I knew right then I should cash out, but again, I was searching for the bigger win. I hear of people all the time cashing out for many thousands, and wanted to taste that victory just once.
I left Alaskan Fishing and headed over to Hitman, which is always good to me. I did okay there, and stayed right around $1000 bucks in my bankroll, but couldn't increase my balance. I then went to Gladiator. I was playing $3.00 a spin trying for the 3 scatter symbols which gives you 100 free spins. It cost me $500 bucks to get it, and only netted me about $150 in the whole bonus. Then I did what I never do. What a gambler should never do. A bad idea from beginning to end.***** I chased my losses. ***** I played a long time, in a lot of other games, but was never able to get another big win. I knew when I was at about $300 bucks that I had made a error in judgement, and again, I lost it all trying for that bigger win. It felt so easy to get that $1000 spin, yet I know it isn't. All I can say is after a ruff week of loses, I took a step back to regain my right frame of mind when it comes to my gambling.
It is now a new week, and I have been kinda laying low this week. Just playing free chips as they come. After betting max so often on games, it is hard to play for .20 or .40 cents a spin. LOL
I guess I just wanted to share my experience and say again how important it is to never chase your losses. Even I , who considered herself above that silly rule, has been humbled by my own actions. The gambling/win bug got the best of me, and I lost my good judgement for a short period of time. I want us all to be winners, and not get eaten alive by that regret/ guilt machine. I had some terrific wins, and had I cashed out, that money would be sitting in my bank account right about now, instead of the low balance I have at the present time. LOL
Good Luck in your gaming, always use your head, and may your next spin be a BONUS.